Do bad feelings make you a bad person?
Take me
I can fit in your back pocket or take up the left side of your bed
Store me in a secret drawer
Save me for a rainy day
I miss the rain down south
I miss the sun in the city
The way that I feel about you is sacrilegious.
I'm on top of the ice now
and the sun is warm.
Late November manic episode:
Lasted 5-6 days
Issues with falling and staying asleep
Very vivid dreams
Forgetting things that have happened
1 hallucination (audio and visual)
Feeling very excited (at times over excited/overly happy)
Productive!!! (Art, writing, etc)
Bursts of energy/ feelin dancey
Restless, especially at night (especially when coming down (I think?))
I am an ever changing thing, perpetually trapped in a state of metamorphosis.
Before my wings have time to dry,
I find myself breaking down,
cocooned in a state of unmaking,
(waiting to be remade)
I am always becoming but never being.
I have become a beetle, a butterfly, a moth,
but have never been those things.
Not truly.
I think I finally love my name
Seeing it in my mom's handwriting on a birthday card.
Hearing my friends say it.
The shape of the letters.
the feeling
